This is just a quick post to vent. Ive had ALOT of bad experiences as far as dating and relationships go. I am finally in a place where I am happy and feel at ease with my life not to mention the special man in my life. The only thing I wish I could erase from my memory are all of these past experiences. Lately images pop into my head of an ex yelling at me or I will recall the exact look on his face when he was telling a lie. I get flashbacks of feeling let down and mistreated. I would almost compare it to post traumatic disorder in the way that flash backs pop into a persons mind causing them a great deal of stress. I don't know whats sparking this in me but I'm even dreaming about it at night.
As much as I am enjoying that I have found an amazing man that makes me happier than I can recall I would give anything to wash these bad memories away. Its like a dark cloud that hangs over me. It causes me to not fully let go, it causes me to be negative. These assholes who have let me down in the past
DO NOT deserve to put a damper on my future happiness. I guess I just need to learn to control my thoughts.....that or therapy!!! Long story short I just don't think I could deal with another heartbreak.
Thanks for hearing me vent.
Just a few thoughts... Maybe the thoughs are coming back because you are writing them out on this blog... sturring the pot if you will... OR maybe when these thoughts come to you, you could write about it and get your feelings out on paper? Which I guess thats what your doing.. lol Either way, I believe that we all have our own ghosts that haunt us. Hope it gets better girl! ~Misty
ReplyDeleteThanks for the comment. I agree with you. I think writing this blog and reflecting on bad past dates and/or experiences with the opposite sex has got me thinking about it more. I think it has been good because all these stories are a part of my life and have brought me to where I am today. No regrets!
DeleteI think that sharing your stories with others can be a means of helping others. People will read about the things that you have gone through, can have a laugh with you, and may learn something from your stories. This can be a form of therapy. You will have the last laugh, because you would have taken those heartbreaking experiences and turned it into something positive in your sharing with others. This sharing also helps build a community around you of the heartbroken, so we can all realize, that we aren't alone in these experiences. Think about all the people who reap exponentially greater rewards from their heartache through their creativity. The examples are endless!
ReplyDeleteAnd, Yes, you do control your thoughts. You are the agent of your mind and body. All the control is within you. Most people don't realize this about themselves. When we stop thinking about ourselves this way, we become depressed because we feel a loss of power. I like to think of the Greek Stoics on subjects like the ones you are bringing up. According to the Stoics, we don't have control over nature. WE DO, however, have control over how we respond to it. When a jerk is being a jerk, one must realize that they are just acting within their nature. Your best decision was to walk away, and you did. That makes you a stronger and smarter person. There's a reason they aren't in your life anymore.
So, all in all, I think you should share your stories. I also think you have an awesome ability to tell stories and you have a great sense of comic timing.
~Mag
Maggie thank you so much for your input. It means alot to me to share my experiences and either get a laugh or people to relate to my stories. As long as people are reading I will continue to write. This blog has been a form of therapy for me and I am really enjoying it! I know at times the things I share may make an ass of myself but I think it’s important to laugh at yourself and above all not take yourself too seriously. Life is hard enough without having a sense of humor about it!!!
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