Self Control & First Dates

Okay not to give everyone too much information but I have not had sex in almost 2 MONTHS! I have no desire to have casual sex with any of the guys from my past.

Here is the issue I had a great first date last night with a guy I have known for the past few months. Every time I would see him I felt a strong attraction for him. I knew even before the first date there was a strong chemistry there. Last night I finally got to go on a date with him and to say I was excited was an understatement. I was beaming and smiling all night. We really hit it off just the way I knew we would.

We started out having an amazing dinner and of course cocktails. The conversation was flowing. No awkward silences. The eye contact was magnetic for most of the evening. As I talked to him and got to know him better I just liked him more and more as the night went on.

At the end of the night he kissed me. He didn't ask. There was not a moment where we were looking into each other eyes and he then went for it. He straight up just went in for the kill. First kisses are typically strange. You have to learn the other persons kissing style etc. Not the case with him and I. The kiss was amazing. Honestly one of the best kisses ever. I am not going to lie to everyone the kiss lingered for about 30 minutes at least! It felt like only a couple of minutes. It gave me the butterflies  and that roller coaster ride feeling in my tummy. He said a few things that concerned me after the kiss such as "I could kiss you forever" or "I cant believe this amazing connection we have" it was nice to hear but honestly he does not know me that well so in the back of my mind I do question how sincere those statements were.

The hardest part will be to not sleep with this guy too soon. I know that I cant and I know that I am not supposed to. I am aware that I am supposed to make him wait and believe me I am going to try really hard because I would like to see this to develop into something but it wont be easy.

I walked away from the date feeling high on life and excited (in more ways than one) ;-)
I like the guy and I am looking forward to the next date. I am going to keep a positive an open mind about the situation and of course try to keep my eyes open and my feet planted firmly on the ground. This is not easy when you get kissed in a way that makes your heart pound and your palms sweat!

 Ill keep everyone posted!